Somewhere in between 18th and 19th of jan

The era of a new laptop comes with many new adventures, many new sites, many new ideas. The idea I came up with today was to start my own blog, kind of like an advice column.
I love typing in this laptop! kind of edgier than the one before yet I can't let go of my baby!! it's so nice like it has all my shit but I love it being so empty!!
I've realised that as much as I know myself , I don't
I can be heartless and full of emotion at the same time.
I can be sad and hyper at the same time!
I can love and hate as well!!
It's the same thing!
Like idk who I am or who am I
What do I need to discover the audacity of my role in life
I gottsa catch catch my breath!!

Normal Day

March 30th, Such a normal day, kinda craving chocolate! No crappy feelings, watching Grey's Anatomy and just finished watching GOSSIP GIRL! great episode. So in the mood,for chocolate and like a boyfriend to cuddle hahahahhahaa. 
We have to choose our senior shirts, either blue green orange yellow. 

Diversions

People, like me, create diversions to get away from the reality.

Diversions, similar to fantasies, create a distraction which some people need to just get away. I drift off in my own world at times. My ipod creates a world of imagination, it helps as a way of getting away!

Regret- SelfDoubt-Self Loneliness!

My Ipod creates an access to an escape so far away from reality.

Diversions!

Getaways!

Reality's messed up

March 29

Feeling of despair , anxiety, slight bit of anger.

The idea of being so close, yet so far away is odd to me

Yesterday, was the climax of my week, He was in the next building, so close yet so far away. Even if we are 10 ft away, we would still be so far away, it would still be a long journey to get to know him. if only this could happen.

The idea of me and him, is just so vague. I can't get the idea in my head, it seems so unrealistic , so distant to reach.

Doubt. Doubt Doubt!

Letting it all out in this blog seems the best way to get rid of it.